Guide Me On

[PaintedNails]

I think I'm still writing "Rubble" lmao. But I just got the idea for another fan fic, so here it is. Rubble isn't going so well anyways..

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Clumsy hands fumble with brass buttons, as weak legs carry a petite frame. Coffee hair mixed with licorice sways in the harsh wind. Frosty blue eyes droop shut in the void of the night. The young woman trudges along harsh streets, a film of haze slightly covering her view. She can't remember anything from that night. In fact, she can't remember anything, at that. The only thing she knows is that she wants to be held in strong arms...

I shiver in my army green blazer, the canvas material not offering much warmth. A slight drizzle is falling. Or is that my own tears, silently dripping from my heavy eyes? I can't remember ever feeling this frightened nor lonely. I raise my head slowly, and feel a sticky substance ooze between my legs. I look down, gasping at my naked thighs. Not an ounce of material covers my lower body, and who knows how long I've been laying here, exposed? As I sit up, I take in my surroundings. Cold damp walls, a dumpster across the alley. Yes, that's where I am: An alley. An alley of hell, where only prostitutes and perverts should be found. I groan as I as I try to sit up completely, my lower body burning with rage. I slowly place a finger between my legs, and bring it back up to the dim light. I gasp at the boiling crimson substance. Why would I be bleeding? What has happened to me tonight? The area between my thighs screams, burns with pain and rage. I let out a soft whimper, as soft as a kitten's meow for I am far from home, far from love....

The young woman lays, her legs spread open, as she waits for someone, anyone, to take her home, to love her once again. ..

20 blocks away, a young man lets out a howl of laughter, as his three friends and him become drunker by the moment. Suddenly , he looks over at the clock tacked to the wall.

"Umm guys..Shouldn't Avril have been back about three hours ago?" He speaks, his voice barely an octave above a whisper, as he realizes it's after 2 a.m

"Huh?" The tallest of the four, a Matt Brann, stutters, as another, Charlie Moniz, jabs him in his ribs.

"God Matt! Won't you listen to me? Avril should have been home hours ago! Something is wrong!" Evan, the one who had first spoken, raises his voice.

"Maybe her and Deryck got hot and heavy, and she decided to stay the night." Craig Wood, the last of the four, shrugged.

Evan winced at the name, pretending he hadn't heard it.

"Yeah, well you know she would've called. Avril wouldn't want us to worry." Matt argued, now worrying too.

"I think we should go look for her!" Charlie drowsily spoke up.

"Charlie, that's the best idea you've had all night, man.." Evan muttered, rolling his eyes at the taller man.

The four hastily threw jackets on, rushing to the front of the hotel lobby. They shrugged their way through the crowds of people , chattering , joking, on the brightly lit New York streets. Even at 2:00 in the morning, the streets were well crowded, the cafe's still herding in customers. The four tried to remember as best they could where Deryck was living. It was on the poorer side of the city, even though they very well knew he could afford something much more glitzy.

The apartments here were crowded together, stray cats wandering the streets. Deryck's apartment building stood alone, on the end of a dimly lit street. A shadow lurked forward, coming closer the the four young men. As it drew into the light, they saw it was a young women, dressed in nothing more than a torn miniskirt, barely reaching her thighs, a knit halter top that clung to her full bust, and leather boots that easly towered over her knees. She gave the four a grin, for them to discover her slightly yellowed teeth. Her brassy blonde hair was filthy, as if not washed in weeks. They could see debris caked under her nails, painted a cheap gold color.

"Uh, excuse me? Did you just come from that apartment building? " Evan timidly asked.

"Why yes I did, cutie." She flashed him another grin. Evan's stomach leaped forward at the sight of her teeth.

"Do you live there or..anything? Because if you do, we were wondering if you knew a Deryck Whibley. " Matt spoke up.

"Why, in fact that's just who I was visiting!" She exclaimed.

"What room is he in? If you happen to remember.." Matt asked.

"Oh..Umm..210? Yeah, that's it." She said. She gave them one last grin, then strutted away.

"God, that chick was freaky!" Craig exclaimed as she cleared from their view.

"You can say that again." Charlie added.

The four hurried to the apartment building, walked up two flights of stairs, then came to the level where Deryck was staying. They walked slowly along, checking the numbers, until they came to Deryck's room. Evan lightly knocked, then stood back.

After a minute, not a sound could be heard from the other side.

"I guess he isn't there anymore..Or else he doesn't want to answer." Matt said, realizing no one was ever going to come.

"Well, let's just try to open the door, so if he is in there." Craig suggested.

Matt pushed the door open, revealing the deserted room. Piles of clothes lay scattered , mingled with empty beer cans. On the bed lay another pile of clothes. Evan slowly approached them, realizing that the pair of lacy black panties and bra that lay strewn across the pillow were Avril's.

"These are Avril's you guys! She must've left them..Or else he kept them." Evan softly said.

"Dude, whatever he did with them, let's just go find her. This place is freaking me out." Charlie said.

Evan realized he was light, for the place was not lighted, nor were there any signs of warmth in the place.

They hurried out of the building, trudging back along the streets. As they tried to hurry their pace on a dimly lit alleyway, Evan heard a soft whimper come from ahead of him. He hurried his pace, until he reached the source of the sound. There in front of him, lay Avril. Her legs were open, blood seeping from between her legs. Her hair was glued to her face, her eyes open, but swelling with pain. When she saw Evan, a smile broke across her face, although Evan knew it must have brought even more pain to her.

"Oh God! Oh God! Avril!" Evan gasped when he saw her torn body. He hurried to her, and lay his head softly on her breasts. She locked her arms around his neck , kissing the soft tender skin. She knew she never wanted to let go. Her heart swelled with love and affection, as Evan placed gentle kisses along her cold, clammy skin. He scooped her up, into his arms, placing his own jackets around her naked waist. The five made their way back, not a word spoken amongst them. But they were all thinking along the same train of thoughts..Whoever had done this to someone they loved and cared so much for, was going to see death in the near future. That could be assured, Evan thought. And so they went back to the warmth of their hotel room, where they would replace Avril's broken heart, her torn ,tattered body, with their own love and kind words..

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I hope that wasn't too short, or that it didn't suck too much!

[Bebe]

awww missy this is a great fan fic. i already know it. i absolutely cannot wait for more.

[derycksmyhero]

Aww, poor Av! I'm already addicted to it! I hope you post more soon!

[PaintedNails]

Aww thanks Kayla and Bebe! I'm glad you two like it!

[Crystal]

That definitely did not suck. Wow. I can't wait to read more!

[Dee]

I need more.

I feel so sorry for Av. Even I want to kill the person who did this.

[what_ever]

omg! I need more

poor av :(

pleaseee write more soon

[mattylover]

OMg that didn't not SUCK the guys r so nice and who eveyr hurt Av should b shot like 100 times i feel sorry for her
but the story was really really good ican't wait for more

[TelescopeEyes]

That was great, can't wait for more.

[PaintedNails]

Aww thanks you guys. I should have some more up within the next few days.

[what_ever]

can't wait!

[ninny_23]

Aww, that's so sweet. Geezies, I hope Avril's okay.

[AvrilandEvan22]

I'm addicted too. Lmao damn I want more! Aww Ev is so sweet...Great start!

[ninny_23]

Very good start. Smooth and intriguing, vanilla coke. lmao I couldn't help it!!

[Artemis]

Like people have said, I'm also addicted to this story! Great chapter!

[PaintedNails]

I should have the next chapter up either tonight, or tomorrow, but mostly likely tomorrow. Sorry I take so long to write the chapters!

[Crystal]

It takes me a while to write too. It's okay. I can't wait!

[sk8ergurl_usa]

OMFG. Who did that to av??? Evan, me and u go kill him. *hands out guns* Anyone wants to help??

OMG that was an amazing story!!

[mattylover]

sure ill halp u sk8ergurl_usa and Ev on this *Takes a gun*

[AvrilandEvan22]

Woo yay it's tomorrow! And it's alright, it's worth it.

Roflmfao, damn you Nancy.

[PaintedNails]

I'm going to try to post it in like..an hour? I hope haha

[AvrilandEvan22]

An hour..8:15? Omg that's soon! Yay! and I'll still be here!

[MiLk n ChErRiOs]

that is interesting! and NO it isnt bad even though u think that i think it is and you wont believe me! ahaha
like i said sooo many times before...u should write a damn book. hahaha

[PaintedNails]

Here's the chapter! Hopefully the next one will be up a bit faster, but I don't know..

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She appears ghastly, her flesh an abnormal color, her fists clenched tight around the cotton sheets. Her breath is ragged, grapsing the muggy air that barely keeps her heart alive..

I awake in a room unlike one I can remember. The blank white walls stare me in the eye. A steel gray chair sits across from me, it's hard seat unwelcoming and cold. The fluorescent lights dusty , for they seem to never be cared for but once every two decades, if that. I take in the room, although there isn't much else to see. The place reminds me of a bad hotel room, the kind with roaches in all the cracks and crevices, maybe a moldy pizza concealed beaneath the bed. Yet there is no moldy pizza here. Just a machine of some kind, standing next to the bed in which I lay. I look, and then...I notice the wires connected to me. I gasp ,seeing the needle digging into my pale flesh.

I finally realize I must be in a hospital of a sort, but not one of a kind I've been in.

I can't seem to decipher why I am here, though. Not a thing feels wrong with me. Sure, that slight pounding in my temple can't be normal, but why place me in the hospital for that?

I edge my way out of the bed, but not before some hateful pain strikes me, right between my legs. I gasp, falling back onto the bed. I inch the cover down, over my thighs. A thin paper gown is all that covers my shivering skin. I fearfully part it, and gaze at the what I see: Dried blood is crusted between my legs, which somehow explains the pulsating, throbbing pain .

I gently let my head rest on the anything but comfortable pillow, taking in what I had just seen. I can't recall anything of the previous night, not one event. At that, I can't even remember my own name! At the moment, the only thing I know is pain, trickling through my body as if injected through some invisible tube, slowly seeping through my veins and blowing out the fuse that keeps my heart breathing....
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A young blonde man , his eyes full of fear and his heart heavy with pain, hurries through the narrow corriders of a hospital, his feet feeling like concrete as he takes each cautious step towards the door, the one which secures and conceals his reason to live...

I place my clammy hand on the doorknob, fearful to turn it . I weigh the consequences, although there is no reason to do so. If I do , I may very well see Avril as I never have before, which that alones frightens me. But then if I don't, I know how my own hate will stab myself over and over, until I bleed from regret, and so I turn the knob.

The room is silent, except for the soft angelic like breath of someone who truly is an angel. Her beautiful crown of hair spills across the pillow. Sure, her face is ashen, unhuman like, but she is still the same Avril I've held, loved, caressed for the past two years.

Her beautiful turquoise eyes open, a doorway into her thoughts. I have always told her I can read her eyes for they are like mirrors, reflecting her very thoughts and emotions. Now I see fear, sadness, reflected upon them.

"Avril." I sweetly whisper to her, tenderly touching her hand, feeling a bitter coldness as I do so. How could the nurses not provide her with thicker blankets? Can't they see her needs? I sigh as I wrap the thin blanket around her shoulder tighter, nudging my nose against her as I do so.

"Ev. What are you doing here?" She soflty responds, grasping at the edge of the paper thin sheet.

"I came to see how you were doing. I wanted to be sure you were okay. After last night..I truthfully felt you weren't going to make it." I say, fresh tears emerging in my eyes. I didn't think it was possible, for I had spilled every last ounce of tears my body could hold last night, or so I thought. Just the memory of her eyes closing, her body becoming weak, her voice not responding, sent a flinch through me.

"Avril, what happened last night? And please, tell me everything, at least what you can remember." That's all I ask of her, that's all I am wanting: the truth. I sit down on the edge of the lopsided bed, holding her hand, and preparing for the terror that will be reality, the truth, of Avril's story...

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She takes a deep breath, her lungs rattling as she does so, her heart shaking. She manages to keep her eyes awake as she tries her best to recall her story...

"Well.." I begins looking down at my chipped fingernail polish, an acid black color, as usual " You know the beginning, of how Deryck called me, asked me over to his apartment. Of course I accpete the invatation, or I wouldn't be here if I had refused..He had tried to prepare a "romantic dinner" for us, but it only was a pizza, and beer of course. I give him credit for the candles he had lit, trying to set the mood for us. "

My mind becomes foggy at this point, not being able to clearly recall the next part of my story.

"I can only remember how many beers we drank. He had two cases, and each time I finished, I can remember him shoving another in my hands. Before long, the two of us were on the bed. I remember his hands all over me, and mine on him. Our clothes were on the floor, and Deryck was ontop of me. I remember crying out, trying to resist him, but he was too powerful for me. "

I stop, watching Evan take this in. His eyes cloud over with sadness, and a tear leaks from his eye. He doesn't say a word, though, and so I continue.

"Next, after he had raped me, because that's really what it was..I didn't want it...Well I was crying, he was yelling, and it was all just a fury of tears and pain. I just remember him screaming, calling me a b*tch over and over, and then he slapped me. I can't recall why though..Maybe because there wasn't a reason. But he did, and he wouldn't stop. And the last thing I recall is him dumping me in an alleyway, leaving me in the rain.."

Evan still sits silently, pale tears streaking his ashen face.

"Avril, how could anyone be so cruel to you? Why would anyone want to harm you like that?" He finally asks, barely above a whisper.

"Because..he hates me. He has no love for me, like I once thought he did. Before there was a spark between us, but it never grew.." I answer him.

But deep inside, somewhere I can't reach, that spark is still lit. My heart still swells with ..something. It can't possibly be love, but certainly not hate. I still want Deryck, even after all he has done to me, all the pain he has caused..

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Well, there it is! A bit longer than normal lmao.

[derycksmyhero]

Awwww, erf why does she still want Deryck?! Erf, awesome chapter! Hope to see more soon!

[MiLk n ChErRiOs]

woot i think i am 1st to read this!(i read kinda slow so probably not)
i could just kill deryck...and i probably could if i tryed!
poor avril...she is soo...i dunno how to explain it! aWw
u need to get the next chapter up...ahhaha


EDIT:see i told u i wasnt...lol

[PaintedNails]

lmao thanks kayla. and kat, you aren't the first! haha. that chapter sucked though, so don't lie you two..I hope the next one is better.

[ninny_23]

Thank you for an awesome chapter!!

[Open Your Eyes]

Awwww... wow. I love those things. No matter how much shit someone puts you through, you still want them. Lmfao. God... I love those kinds of things. Meh... I still kinda hate how Deryck is portrayed as the bad guy with all the stories here. Ah well.

[PaintedNails]

thanks nancy! and yeah..lmao rush . Well Deryck..has a bad reputation, and he IS her boyfriend right now, so he kind of goes with the story..

[ninny_23]

Well, at least he's hot.

[Open Your Eyes]

Yeah, but it doesn't mean he can't change. Ah well. I'm not going on my Deryck defending rampage again right now, lmfao.

[PaintedNails]

Deryck?? Eww...I don't think so..His hair is ugly and..Ahh. Evan is so much better, evan with the new hair. lmao

[Open Your Eyes]

Are you kidding me? He's hot! He reminds me of a friend of mine.

[PaintedNails]

I won't say anything...I'm sorry but...yeah.. lmao

[Dee]

Great story and I can't wait for more.

Ok so people can change but I still don't think Deryck is the right one for Avril. Had it been another guy I would have been fine with it.

[ninny_23]

I know, Deryck just doesn't seem right. If it had been, say Pierre, that'd be fine because he seems like a great guy and he has a good vibe to him.

[what_ever]

that was amazing, I need more.

baaaad baaaaad Deryck, hope she realises that she needs to dump his ass

lol

[Dee]

Originally posted by ninny_23@Jun 13 2004, 02:32 AM
I know, Deryck just doesn't seem right. If it had been, say Pierre, that'd be fine because he seems like a great guy and he has a good vibe to him.
Exactly. Another guy who is nice. Pierre seems nice too.

Go away Deryck, far far away.

[Open Your Eyes]

That's the thing. Pierre seems nice. You go off reading about Deryck and say that he is bad. Deryck's nice contrary to popular belief. He actually does care about women. He isn't just about sex. Remember "The Hell Song"? That was written about a female friend of theirs that is HIV positive. They helped her out in any way they could. Sum 41 went over to Congo to help kids for WarChild. They CHOSE to go into a danger zone for children. To bring music over there and to help and understand their dangerous lives.

What has Pierre done? Nothing I know of. I can see what Avril sees in Deryck.

[MiLk n ChErRiOs]

Originally posted by Dee@Jun 13 2004, 07:21 AM
Go away Deryck, far far away.
yes...he needs to go awayy....very very very very far away. i dont like him much...i dunno why. he just seems...i dunno, untrustworthy....i mean he dated paris hilton! i mean i like her but she is on the ..ahem.. side

[AvrilandEvan22]

Sadly, I don't Rush. Lmfao well I don't really listen to SUm 41, but..meh. He's ugly to say something! lmao but I won't get you started. Oh yeah, lmao, I hate to admit, but I like him portrayed as the bad guy. Gives it more of an effect!

[vixsk8ink]

Awesome story i cant wait for more and yeah i think too that Deryck is not the guy for Avril theres plenty of fish in the sea why did it have to be him thats what i ask myself everytime but oh well hope Avril notices that very very soon oh and GO STORY I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[PaintedNails]

Thanks you guys.

I just don't think it will last long with her and Deryck. I mean, Avril had said before that she always had crush on Deryck, and now she's finally with him..I guess I feel happy for her, but..I would be alot happier for her if she was with Evan..lmao

[AvrilandEvan22]

Ok, call me slow, because I am, but I JUST realized you've had a chapter up. Lmfao. And omg...it was f*cking awesome! I hope Av's ok...and she still wants him? :huh:

Also, when did you hear she said she had a crush on him?

[PaintedNails]

Aww thanks Kirsten!

I don't know lmao..It was a long time ago, but I know I did. She used to say he was "cute" or something.

[sk8ergurl_usa]

DEATH TO DERYCK! DEATH TO DERYCK! DEATH TO DERYCK!

Omg, im so addicted to this story now... *needs more*

[formely_i_luv_avrils_ bois]

um....i want more story...it's really good...keep up the great work

[hinee2002]

omg, i need more, this is amazing..it's just absolutly incredibal. the way you write is just unexplainable. it's so well written.please write more very soon!!

[PaintedNails]

Aww thank you so much everyone! I really appreciate it! I really hope to have some more up tonight, if I could.

[PaintedNails]

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Her heart swells with love as she sees the face of an angel appear in her doorway, his golden hair a halo softening his concerned face as his lips form a smile, peering in at his love, his life....

I pry my eyes open, which takes a considerable amount of effort, for the previous night had been a harsh one, complete with tossing and turning, and throbbing headaches. I scan my eyes towards the doorway, where someone is standing, but my eyes can't focus on who it is, exactly. I blink rapidly, trying to clear the haze from my droopy eyes. It's Evan who stands there, an all too familiar glint of concern behind his ocean blue eyes.

"It's about time you woke up." He says. I watch as his lips form a thin smile.

"What time is it?" I worridly ask, rubbing the sleep from my eyes.

"Late enough to say breakfast has long pasted, and I have lunch prepared for you. " He grins now , his bare feet softly hitting the wooden floor as he makes his way over to my bed. He leans in close enough that I can smell the sweetness of his just washed hair, which gleams like a highly polished gem. He lowers himself onto the bed, placing his hand on my cheek. The tenderness of his touch awakens me, as he swishes his hand softly along my warm cheek. Evan oh so gently pulls me into his strong arms, before cupping my head in his hands. He looks down, nudging his nose against my own.

"Avril, you don't know how worried you had me. You've been sleeping, almost two days straight through! I truly don't know what I would've done if I had lost you. I could never make it in this world without you , Avril." He whimpers, as he lays his head on my shoulder.

"Evan , I know you would make it without me." I simply answer, my mind warning me to say no more.

"Why?"

"Because you would have to." And that there, was the truth. Evan would have to make it on his own if the good Lord ever took me in my young age. If he didn't he would be a nobody.

"Enough of this depressing talk. I have lunch prepared for you, so you better eat it, young lady!" He warns , playfully toiling with a long strand of my hair around his finger, then oh so fast, he lets it swirl into a loose curl as he lets go.

He carries me away, letting my mind wander to another world. I feel like the princess I will never be as he scoops food into my hungry mouth. As I sit there, letting Evan pamper me like a queen, the spark deep within me is revived once again. This time the flame is growing each second, much more than it did for Deryck. But why now? Evan has been with me for over two years, and never before have I felt like this. Sure, I had an innocent crush on him, nothing that I would turn us into rapid lovers. But now that the fire was lit, I couldn't seem to blow it out...
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His pulls his face into an expression of anger, as a knock sounds on the front door, taking his thoughts away from love, and into reality..

Avril and I lay, our legs tangled, on the leather sofa, the t.v tuned on in front of our sleepy eyes. It has been exactly one month since the night I had found Avril in that alleyway, where she had been torn and tattered, phsyically and emotionally. As I turn my face againist hers, my lips softly grazing her nose, I hear a knock that shatters my desires.

"f*ck!" I swear, as the person rapidly continues rapping on the door, destroying my fantasies of being alone with Avril all night.

Avril's feet pad against the floor as she makes her way to the door. her long hair swishing against her back. Her hand grazes the doorknob, before peering back at me, as if questioning whether or not to open it.

I shrug my shoulders, for my opinion usually doesn't count in most situations with Avril. Her hand plunges around the knob, and yanks the door open.

There standing on the steps, the rain beating down like bullets on him, the wind whispering secrets throughout the night , is Deryck, all five feet and maybe a few extra inches that don't make a difference anyways. His black hair is plastered to the sides of his face, his hands stuffed into his thin jacket, the hood attempted to be pulled around him, but is blown back by the raging wind.

His eyes scan behind Avril, and lock on me. If ever before I have seen hatred in one's eyes, it has to be his that contain the most.

"Oh? So I see our Avril is not alone on this cold dreary night, now is she?" He smirks, his lip curling into a snarl.

"Deryck, I'm just staying with her for a few weeks. We felt we should try to write get our song writing process going for the next album, although that won't be for awhile.." My voice trails off, along with my thoughts.

"Well can I take your precious angel away from you for a few minutes?" He challenges me, his eyes shooting poision into my skin.

"Only if you leave as soon as you are finished." I weakly spit out, before turning on my heel and trudging up the stairs.

My legs somehow manage to carry me to Avril's room, where I have been sleeping. I fall facedown onto the mattress with a pile of blankets heaped ontop of it. I feel my heart break in two, knowing that once Deryck has set out to win Avril's heart again, she'll never achknowledge that I'm alive , in front of her marvelous eyes.

Thirty minutes bring about Avril's footstep's, heavily trudging up the stairs. Her face is tear streaked, and I'm sure her heart has been shattered into smaller pieces, if ever possible than before.

"Av, what happened?" I quietly wonder aloud, as she rubs her mascara streaked face, strands of hair sticking to her wet face.

"He..he told me I deserved what he gave me. He told me he never once meant it when he said he loved me. He told me I should have never been born, and I especially shouldn't be where I am now, as a singer. And..he told me I belong with no one, that no one will ever want me. Evan, do you..Was what he said true?" She sniffles all the while, rubbing her nose and eyes.

I sit there dumbfounded for a moment, before my tongue can find the will to speak once again.

"Avril, never believe a bastard like him, not a word his mouth speaks. I don't know what gave him the will, the idea, to say such things to you, but he should never be allowed to look at or speak to you again." I form each word carefully, fearful the wrong thing will shatter Avril's heart forever, never to be put back together again. I hope that one day I will be the one to weave each piece into place once again, letting her know that love is possible to find in the right person..

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Once beautiful eyes turn cold, hurtful, sad, as the days pass. There once had been a will to live, but now the world seemed to offer nothing but emptiness, pain, hate...

With my heart torn , I find no happiness in life anymore. I've had countless so called "loves" but not one of them turned out to be what I thought. Each time my heart was shattered, my once high hopes raised to lower levels. I doubt now that I will ever find someone to just be there for me, just love me when I'm broken , and not be ashamed of who I am.

But then there is one...One who I know I can rely on, through the darkest hours of my days. He stands happily, always a golden smile formed on his perfect features. His heart swells with love for the ones who care for him. And the ones who don't? He never puts them down, just walks by them without another thought.

I'm proud to be called his "best friend". But somewhere inside me, something whispers, sometimes screams, that I need him as more, that it is my destiny to be held in his arms, to be held in his heart. I'm captivated by him, but I don't exactly know why. Maybe it's that golden hair that matches my own. Or his eyes that always hold a look of happiness, a certain kindess.

I move swiftly towards my room, where Evan is sleeping still. I quietly push the door open, to see him laying there on my bed, a smile formed on his perfect lips. I make my way to him, sitting down next to him where I toil his golden locks.

"Evan, even though you don't know it, I love you." I whisper, my voice hopefully carried away in the non- exsisting wind...

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Ugh, I don't like this chapter much. Hopefully the next will be much better!

[Bebe]

holy f*ck man!! that was awesome. i absolutely loved it. that was great. incredible job missy!!

[ninny_23]

Oooh, loverboy strikes again!

[MiLk n ChErRiOs]

if this was real i would cry....and then i would find deryck and stab him where his heart was to see the pain he put avril through...that is my mission in life.

ps. missy, you really need to stop doubting on how good your writing is, or i will get charlie on you. haha

[hinee2002]

god that is so amazing, i would give anything to beable to write like that!!! dear lord you are a gifted one!! more please!

[Dee]

I so want more. That was amazing.

I can't believe Deryck came back only just to say those things. I hope Av can heal and forget about what Deryck did to her so she can be with Evan.

[what_ever]

omg AMAZING
I need moreeee

[TelescopeEyes]

More!

[mattylover]

amazing that was truly amazing i can't wait for more
Deryck relly has a death wish don't her

[PaintedNails]

Thank you guys so much! I didn't think that chapter was that good, but I guess you guys liked it lmao. I'll try to have more either tomorrow or Friday.

[ninny_23]

It's Friday.... Damn, that doesn't sound stalkerish at all!

[AvrilandEvan22]

^:blink:

OMG That was awesome!! You do write really beautifully. Omg...GAH! MORE PLEASE!

[PaintedNails]

I'm going to try Nancy! lmao. I hope I'll have it up tonight but..If I don't..Please don't kill me haha

[hinee2002]

gaaa, im gunna freak out!! i want more!!

[PaintedNails]

Ahh I don't know if I will be able to get it up tonight!

[hinee2002]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[PaintedNails]

I'm sorry!! I will try to have it tomorrow though! And I'll try to make it extra good to make up for it lmao

[ninny_23]

It better be! lmao I'll be waiting.

[PaintedNails]

I don't think it's going to be up tonight either. I'm not feeling well, so I really don't feel like writing either. Sorry! I'll try to get it up as soon as I can!

[ninny_23]

Aww, take a week, I won't mind. Now, the rest might do some damage, but don't worry about me.

[PaintedNails]

A week? Well I don't think it will be THAT long! lmao

[hinee2002]

please put up more really really soon

[PaintedNails]

I'll try to as soon as possible, but I'm not sure when that will be..

[PaintedNails]

OMFG I was just going to post the chapter..Well I almost had it finished, and then it all disappeared! I am never going to have anything up...

[XxInnocentAngel]

Amazing story, please post more soon.

[PaintedNails]

I'll try but I don't know when. It might not be for..another month lmao I don't feel too inspired right now ..

[ninny_23]

Argh, this feels like what happened to Rush. It was a lot of pain, heartache, and swearing. Well, until she posted another chapter anyway.

[Open Your Eyes]

Roflmfao. You talking behind my back?

[ninny_23]

Of course not. I was just... being elfishynessly supportive. :D

[PaintedNails]

LMAO well...I just lost the whole story and then kind of forgot what I was going to write. And then seeing those recent pictures of her and Deryck making out don't do much for inspiration lmao.

[Dee]

I totally agree with you. Those pics don't give you any inspiration.

[ninny_23]

lmao They're cute though. Well, they would be if Deryck didn't resemble a hobo.

[AvrilandEvan22]

^roflmfao. He looks like a cow.

I see what you mean. Lmfao. It's great though, how it's so tempting to look at the damn pictures, but I haven't.

[ninny_23]

I don't even know what pictures they're looking at. The only ones I've seen are at the Maxim afterparty. Argh, stupid Piggory.

[PaintedNails]

The ones at the Beverly Hills Hotel lmao. You don't want to look at them. And I wish I hadn't because now I have nothing to write about Av and Ev lmao.

[Dee]

I regret watching them too. I try to avoid pics of them but one another board I clicked on a thread and there they were so sadly I had to see them.

[PaintedNails]

I know! Everytime I see or hear about her and Deryck I feel all sad . Her and Evan need to be cute again, damn it! lmao

[PaintedNails]

Suprise suprise! I'm working on the next chapter and if you are lucky it will be up either tonight or tomorrow!

[Dee]

Can't wait for it... ...

[PaintedNails]

Feelings that once were buried to deep to surface are now burning at full speed, drowning her in tender love and contentment....

As the days pass by, feelings that were once buried below the surface bubble to the top, and burst , making it sometimes impossible to grasp reality. I feel a blush heat my face each and everytime I glance at Evan, something that has never occured in all the two and half years we have known eachother. I catch him in the same way, a red blush staining his cheeks when his eyes meet mine. And I know this is something we won't be able to keep a secret forever, for our fellow bandmates have already suspected something between the two of us.

"Avril, Evan, if there is something between you two..You know you can tell us. " Matt casually let the words hang , as if waiting for one of us to admit.

"Matt, why do you think that?" Evan asked .

"I've seen the way you two look and act around one another. Believe me, I know when I see love between two people. " Matt smirked slightly at us, darting his eyes from me to Evan.

"Well Matt, maybe you are wrong there, because not one thing is going on between Avril and I that wasan't going on before." Evan's words suprsingly sting me like a sharp hand hitting weak flesh. And the burn doesn't go away.

Why, I wonder, do I feel like this about Evan now? Why never before? What has happened that changed us?

The only conclusion I can draw is my relationship with Deryck, and having Evan there through my hardships with him. But it seems as if he doesn't feel the same about me..

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He watches his young love, her smile golden, her words melting him. He's tempted, mesmerized by her every move...

I perch on the side of Avril's hotel bed, watching her brush her long golden locks of silk spun hair, as she prepares for our dinner outing that night. Her long black dress clings to her curves, the plunging neckline revealing every bit of her a man would wish to see. A long necklace drapes into her cleavage, drawing the eye to it. She purses her lips, as she sweeps a glossy red lipstick over them, then pouts at me.

"So how do I look, Mr. Taubenfeld?" She playfully says, her mouth curling into a grin.

"Avril." I stutter " You look fabulous. But don't let it get to your head!" I say, finding difficulty in speaking. I wonder how a dress can such things to a man.

She giggles with delight as my fingers entwine with her own, pulling me towards the door. We had decided on a French resturant for our special dinner. Matt had suggested to me that I took Avril to a nice resturant, where I would pour my heart and soul out to Avril afterwords.

We arrive earlier than our reservations had been for , and so we wait together in the front. Only one seat is available , making it that Avril has to sit in my lap. Which is , of course, perfectly alright with me. Avril turns her head towards mine, grinning softly as she does so.

"Since when did you get so sexy?" She whispers huskily , her words trickling down my spine , leaving a chill behind.

But before I can answer her, a voice breaks through the crowd.

"Reservations for a Mister Taubenfeld?" A small man appears, two menus in hand as he leads us to our private table. A candle sits on the surface of the table, and we are seated beside eachother, instead of the usual across from eachother.

"Mmm romantic." I murmer into Avril soft hair, smelling the sweet coconut soap as I do so.

She gazes up and offers a slight mischevious grin.

"Oh yes. And I'm sure things can get even more romantic if we want, tonight. " Her eyes sparkle with laughter, and her lips break into a smile.

"Indeed they can." I reply, my hand trembling as I reach for my menu.

I feel Avril shift beside me, and I let my eyes wander to her, and down her lowcut dress. She must sense my eyes on her, for she turns her eyes to me, and giggles softly.

"Evan! What a naughty boy you are! You shouldn't let those eyes wonder too much!" I laugh at her, my voice shaky.

After our order has been taken, Avril let's her head rest on my shoulder.

"Av.." I start, but the words won't come. I feel choked, not able to speak.

"What is it Ev?" She gently asks, looking up at me with liquid blue eyes, full of love and contentment.

" I just...Never mind. I'll tell you later. Now isn't the time or place." I say, leaving her thoroughly confused and concerned.

We sit through an hour of gourmet foods and entertainment. When the bill has been paid, we head back to our hotel.

As we open the door to her room, we pass Matt, who mutters something about "getting lucky tonight."

I roll my eyes at his childish behaviour, and continue into Avril's room. She is already in the bathroom, changing into more proper and comfortable clothing.

I remember that I had left a change of clothing in her room, and so I start to tug the uncomfortable tuxedo jacket and pants off. I have nothing more than a mere pair of red silky satin boxers on, when Avril opens the door, revealing a barely clothed body. Neither of us can speak, and it isn't just because I am wearing next to nothing...

Her heart races, her tongue is twisted, and her knees tremble. She has finally lost the will to speak...

I wonder if my choice of a lacy black baby doll nighty is a good one, when I see Evan's rapildy growing excitement.

"Avril." Evan blushes, not knowing what to do with himself. It isn't as if I have never seen him in his boxers before. But this time is different, for we are both nearly naked, and alone together, as we hadn't been alone any other time.

"Avril..I..I think now is the time to tell you what I've been wanting to tell you." He shly says, avoiding my gaze.

"And what is that, Ev?" I say, coyly giving him a soft grin.

" I ...I really like you Avril. I know this will all sound stupid, and I know it's also a bit obvious, but it's just best that I tell you. We've been avoiding the fact that we are madly in love with one another, and I think it's time we get it out." He rapildy fires his statement, as if anxious to shut his mouth again.

For the second time in one day, I find the loss of speech again . But this time I don't know why. I had known for a long time that Evan had been quite fond of me, and I of him. But now that the words had been spoken, my mouth couldn't find the right words.

"Evan , I've felt the same for a long time, and I'm glad you finally told me. " Those are the only words I can manage to find.

"What appropriate clothing we have on, Evan. We confess our love, wearing nothing more than red boxers and a lace nighty. " I grin, bashfully batting my long lashes at him .

"Why yes it is quite appropriate! Why look, we are all ready to get down and dirty already!" Evan says, catching onto my playful game.

" Indeed we are. " I respond with a passionate kiss, letting my tongue slip into his mouth.

"I love you , Avril Lavigne." Evan says, in between wet , sweet kisses.

"And I love you too, Evan Taubenfeld." Is the last thing I say before the two of us fall onto the bed, preparing for the long night of heated kisses and passionate words...
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Okay, I didn't like that chapter much , but the next one will be the sex scene so...I'm sure you will all enjoy that lmao.

[TelescopeEyes]

Awesome chapter... lmfao sex scene...oh yea.. thats the way uh huh uh huh I like it.. Can't wait for more!

[PaintedNails]

That wasn't awesome. But the next chapter should be..... :devil:

[TelescopeEyes]

It was so hush.. lmao and yes more!!

[PaintedNails]

Lmao. Alright then I won't argue. Yes, I always enjoy writing the sex scenes so that should be up pretty soon...;)

[TelescopeEyes]

lmao great.. lmao omg what would be great is if Evan was to get a haircut too.. lmao.

[PaintedNails]

I know! That would make things easier to write about. And if he got waxed lmfao.

[TelescopeEyes]

lmfao.. exactly...

[Bebe]

I FREAKING LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !! lol.

you did an amazing job. i always love your stuff. you know im ready to read the next chapter.

[Dee]

Great chapter. I'm so ready to read the next chapter.

[mattylover]

now that was kickass chapter now i can't wait to read he next

[PaintedNails]

Awww thanks you guys! lmao Bebe. It was not amazing. But like I said , the next one should be next better...

[MiLk n ChErRiOs]

that was awsome! ha! u used the 'red lipstick' thingy ! i thought you didnt like it...well get your new chapter up soon cuz there needs to be more 'love' between av and ev!

[ninny_23]

I ENJOYED IT UNTIL THE LAST WORD!!! How hot. lmao

[PaintedNails]

Lmao Nancy! Then you'll certainly enjoy the next chapter..

[XxInnocentAngel]

MORE SOON!!!!!!

[ninny_23]

Why? Is there some "booty" in it? Come on, you gotta tell me!!

[PaintedNails]

Oh there's more than some booty in it, believe me...

[TelescopeEyes]

I believe you...

[PaintedNails]

You'd better! Lmao

[ninny_23]

I wanna know how much "booty". Is it hot, steamy, blushable, or jaw dropping?

[PaintedNails]

All of the above!

[PaintedNails]

Augh, sorry I haven't had anything up. I'll try within the next few days.

[Bebe]

missy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm bumping it!!!

*bumpbadumpbumpbump*

feeling inspired?

[ninny_23]

Argh, now I have Dip It Low in my head. Thank you Bebe.

I want my booty chapter!!

[PaintedNails]

I'm almost done with the chapter. I should have it up tomorrow, or sometime soon. Sorry it's been like 2 months since I've had anything! lmao

[mattylover]

its ok it worth the wait for it i can't wait

[PaintedNails]

Her heart swells with phenomenal love for the one beside her. Feelings once buried so deep now surface, bubbling above the top...

The sound of Evan's sweet, soft breaths faintly reach my ears, as I awaken. The lace curtains can not conceal the sunshine which spills through the window, and puddles onto the mauve carpet. I pull my legs away from the tangled satin sheets, and drop my feet firmly on the carpet. Evan stirs in his sleep, aroused by my sudden movements. I slowly pad my bare feet across the luscious carpet, but not before feeling a pair of strong arms drape across my neck.

"It's good to see you have awaken with me, Evan." My voice slips out in a soft whipser, smooth as a gentle breeze as I recognize the feeling of Evan's hold.

"Mmm, indeed it is. It's good to be with you, Av." He murmurs, his soft honey voice melting into me.

Gradually, are bodies awaken, preparing for the day ahead of us. Evan begins a quick breakfast for us, while I hastily pull a shirt and pants on.

After the last crumbs have been swept away , and any amount of drowsiness has been stored for the day, I quickly sweep gloss on my lips, before heading out the door. A quick goodbye is murmured to Evan, and then I am off into the bustling world of New York...


His eyes follow her, an image he can not shake from his soul. Her porcelian face haunts him..

I watch as the last trace of Avril's presence disappears out the door. A sulking feeling of lonliness grows in the pit of my stomach. With Avril off to a day long photoshoot, I suddenly realize I don't want to do anything. Of course, there is always the choice of socializing with the other guys, or taking myself out into New York, but neither suggestion is what I really want. Knowing I want to spend the day with Avril, and not a cluster of other guys, I settle myself in for a day of soap operas and microwave popcorn. But of course, things never go as to according to plan.

Not five minutes into "Days of Our Lives" and a handful of buttery popcorn, a knock is sounded at my door. Groaning with annoyance, I pick myself up off of the couch, trudging towards the door.

"Not going anywhere today, I see. " Says the intruder, as I open the door and peek around the corner.

"Oh. Hi Matt." I say, half relieved and half angered that someone disturbed my pity party.

"So, since I see you aren't obviously doing anything today " Matt says, gesturing towards my boxers and ruffled hair " why don't you let me in. "

"Fine, fine. I was just settling down for a five hour soap opera fest though. You are welcome to join me." I say, perking up ever so slightly, realizing I would otherwise be spending the day alone.

"And what is the occasion for such lazyness?" Matt chuckles, scanning over the bowl of popcorn, and the wonderful mixture of Avril's clothing and mine strewn across the floor.

"Avril's gone for the day." I state simply.

"Oh?" Matt replies in the same simple manner.

"Yes..I don't know what else to do ,so.." I allow my voice to trail off

"Well, I have an idea of what you can do tonight.." Matt says, a mischevious look entering his eyes. I do not answer, waiting for him to go on.

"Avril's going to be home tonight by five o' clock, right? " I nod my head ever so slightly. "Well, go out, by ingredients for a nice romantic meal, cook it, and then let nature take its course from there." Matt lets the words strew out, before winking and heading towards the door.

Before I can slip in another word otherwise, the door shuts behind him, leaving me alone in the midst of dirty clothes and buttered popcorn.

I run Matt's words through my head numerous times, considering and tossing the idea away. Finally, my decision is made, and I am headed out the door, after I hastily dress myself...

Her weary eyes droop, after a strenuous day. The only thing she can think of is the sweet warmth of sleep...

My feet trudge along the cement, as I make my way back to the hotel. It had been six hours since I had left, six grueling hours of standing under scorching lights, and smiling fakily for the flashing camera.

It was ten blocks to the hotel, ten blocks too many. I thought of how when I arrived at my room, I would take a steaming bath, the warm luscious water indulging me. Then I would crawl into the comforting warmth of my bed, until the rays of the morning sun awoke me.

But of course, things never go according to plan..When I reached the room, Evan was still there. Has he spent all day in here, being idle while I have worked my ass off? I thought, suddenly angered . But my thoughts quickly diminished when I saw him standing beside the stove, stirring a delicious smelling sauce. The scent wafted through the air, reaching my nose, and my stomach rumbled suddenly. I hadn't realized how hungry I had been, until then.

"It's about time you get back, Av." Evan turned suddenly, facing me.

"Yes. It's about time I go to sleep, too." I reply, half joking.

"Mmm. I don't think just yet. You need to try some food from the famous Evan Taubenfeld, and then you'll feel well rested. Guaranteed." Evan jokes.

"And how is some food going to make me feel well rested? What's in it?" I say, playing along.

"Just taste some, and you'll see. I made it especially for you, Av." Evan says , suddenly smiling warmly at me. And so, I end up sitting down at the table, with a plate of piping hot paste, crusty Italian bread, and a glass of wine. Evan sits across from me, with his own heaping plate of food.

Before I know it, I have dug into the pasta, drenched in rich tomatoe sauce and sprinkled with parmesan cheese.

"Looks like someone was hungry." Evan says, taking notice of my suddenly huge appetite.

I grin sheepishly. " Well, the only thing I had to eat today was a salad, and that can't compare to what you made. Geez, Evan. You should be a chef on the side. " I say, grinning meekily at him.

After the meal is finished, and the table is swept clean, Evan and I sit down together on the couch. His strong arms embrace me, and his passionate kisses overtake me.

"Mmm Av baby. I love you." Evan says, brushing a lock of long hair out of my eyes. In response, I wrap my arms around him, biting the side of his neck. Evan suddenly sweeps my off the couch, and with a soft swift movement, lays me onto the soft sheets of the bed. Our clothes come off in a tangle, laying forgotten on the carpeted floor. Sweat drips over our naked bodies, as our kisses become more and more heated and intense. His hands explore every part of my body, and mine his. He places gentle kisses between my breasts, nuzzling gently.

"Avril, I think it's time for us." Evan finally looks up. But he doesn't need to say it. I've known for ages, that it is time.

With his eyes locked into my own, my heart swelling with love as his does too, he quickly enters me. Any pain that had once exsisted diminishes as his powerful thrusts quickly bring waves of pleasure. I feel myself being taken away from the room, and into an unknown heaven, raising higher and higher above the clouds. I let my back arch, as the waves become stronger and stronger. Only when the pleasure has stopped coming, that I realize how loud my moans had been.

Evan softly rolls of to the side, his breaths as quick and heavy as my own. Our legs lay tangled, our hands laced, as we pull towards eachother. No words need to be spoken, as our tired souls drift into sleep, where dreams of passion and love are held.


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Augh. It's been almost two months, and that is all I have to offer. Sorry it wasnt as hot and heavy as I promised, and that it was so short! And thank you Bebe, for a little help. ;)

[Bebe]

wowwowowowowowowowowowow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay you posted!! i loved it so much. i loved it missy i loved it!

[PaintedNails]

Aww thanks! But I'm not completely satisfied with it..

[Dee]

That was good. Thanks for writing something at least. I know how hard it is to get inspiration and time to write.

Keep on writing.

[mattylover]

it was wow really good i can't wait for more

[ninny_23]

lmao Honey, I'm satisfied. Great job.

[PaintedNails]

Thanks you guys. I know that isn't as good as my other chapters, but it's the only thing I could muster. I'm not really online or anything that much as I was , so who knows about the next chapter.

[ninny_23]

I know what you mean. Being on everyday isn't possible for me anymore. Hope you find enough time though!

[PaintedNails]

I have no idea where this story will go. I seem to get stuck with my writing after the sex scene chapter. Lmfao. I don't know why...